This week’s Life Book lesson taught me that I need to be more patient and it reinforced that my creative nemesis is time.
The tutor for this week was Jeanne Oliver and the idea was to create a mixed media piece using an image of ourselves as the key piece of scaffolding for the art work that would emerge. Her video tutorial was in-depth, detailed and crammed full of new techniques and approaches. My first challenge, however, was just watching the videos: I have had such little free time this week that I had to watch the videos in bursts of five or ten minutes over the course of a few days. It is difficult to feel immersed in inspiration and ideas when all the dipping in and out undermines the cohesion and flow of what the artist is demonstrating. It was a definite test of my patience.
Another challenge I faced was that I did not have the materials required for some of the techniques, including the key technique of image transfer that Oliver demonstrated a few times in the course of the tutorial. I, therefore, had to improvise with what I had in order to end up with the same sort of result. Having figured out how I was going to approach the piece and even having an image of it in my mind’s eye, the snag of lack of time came to the fore again. I had to mentally break down the piece I wanted to create into very many bite size stages. I had five minutes to work on it here, ten minutes to work on it there, but I could not risk abandoning a stage part way through otherwise I would be risking the whole thing becoming disjointed.
Something I found interesting while creating this piece was that I realised – by virtue of having to improvise a bit – that I was pulling on learning from several Life Book lessons, not just Jeanne Oliver’s: the blending of collage and paint to create a figure was something I did for Jane Davenport’s lesson; I had learned some skills involved in painting portraits from the lesson with Jenny Wentworth; the use of metallics was something I learned from Mati Rose McDonough’s lesson and which I then incorporated into another painting I did; and there have been several lessons involving building up layers of collage and pigment that I borrowed from for this piece. The process made me realise not only how much I am learning but how much I am absorbing.
As I built up the background and figure’s body using collaged papers, I contemplated not making it a self-portrait at all. I would much rather paint someone either more aesthetically pleasing than myself or with a more characterful face than myself. However, the whole idea of the lesson was to create a piece that was a reflection of self. I, therefore, resolved to stick with the plan and paint my own face. Ugh.
The resulting face looks like me and yet does not look like me. I have a habit of making eyes too big – largely because of my usual drawing style – so in my attempts to ensure they did not end up too starey they have actually ended up looking like I am in some sort of stupor. My eyes and eyebrows are one of my dominant features so the eyes not being large enough means the face does not really look like me. The proportions of the forehead are correct (I have a five-head) but I painted my chin a bit too low in relation to my mouth (and my lips really are that big and pouty). So if you squint your eyes just so the face looks like me. Something I deliberately changed was the hair. I have terrible hair. It would not make for an interesting painting. Since my collage and composition had taken me into a sort of Klimt or Mucha vibe, I felt like the figure needed full, thick hair – something I have never had. The hair is actually collaged from a book.
Except for the face (ugh!) I am really pleased with how this piece turned out. I like the palette of neutrals with the disc of gold behind the head and the metallic dots and gold splatter adding interest. I like that the body is collaged out of an image of scrabble pieces since it relates to my love of words, literacy and literature. I like the little bits of collage around the golden disc. I can see me using the techniques I used in creating this piece again – just not with my mug – and at some point I would like to try the image transfer technique Oliver highlighted in her lesson too.